breathless in the daylight.

I received an email this morning about fitness and motivation for an app someone is working on.  I wish there were a specific recipe for fitness motivation.  One cup of peanut butter + maple syrup + snickers bar + chocolate ice cream.  Or something like that.  Anything from Rusty's, Victoria's, or Tarahumara's.  For real though, my motivation comes and goes.  Some weeks, I'm so into it and at least one week a month (go figure) I'm not wanting to move my ass anywhere but into a pizza parlor. 

This is what works for me:

My style Pinterest board-  looking at clothes and girls who look good in those clothes make me want to workout and be on good diet behavior.  I say "diet" but really, it's just avoiding some of the treats I let myself have.  Example:  Yes, I'll have one martini instead of 4 beers.  

Check out the tagged photos on Tracy Anderson's facebook page.  Tons of before, during, and afters and it's pretty damn motivating.  

I remind myself that I feel great, sleep better, and have lower stress levels when I'm being good. 

Making a new workout playlist!

Have something to look forward to-  this is my ultimate motivator.  I look forward to playing shows and going out on the weekend and date nights with Husband.  

Sundays.  I eat something bad and delicious on Sundays.  Free days are important to me.

If nothing works and I just can't get into dance cardio, I just don't do it.  I don't beat myself up over it, I just pick up where I left off the next day.  No big deal.  Some days I just don't have the time.

Any tips you'd like to share with me?

I'm drinking my first diet coke since Sunday.  SUNDAY, i said.  Wait, i did try a diet coke and cherry whipped vodka the other night.  It was a little tiny drink though.  Yes, it was good but a little sweet for me.  Like a melted cherry coke snowcone.  Total college girl drink.

Jack is back at school this week.  He's been a very sweet chicken the past couple of days.  Still waking up in the middle of the night and insisting on getting in bed with us.  Any tips on how to stop this would be greatly appreciated.  

♥

jp

oklahoma breakdown.

Friday:

Lunch with Hannah!

Had 2 drinks with BFF Dave and it was awesome.

Much needed, much appreciated.

We made up a new game called Conspiracy Theory.

I will never tell you how to play it.

maybe i'll tell Marisa, she'll get it.

A beer on the back porch with Husband.

Asleep early.  Low key.  Perfect.

Hannah (sister-in-law) flew back from L.A. for the weekend.  I can't tell you how good it was to see her!  I knew I'd miss them- but a couple of times a week it really hits me and hurts my soul.  I've never been this far away from my brother for this long in my entire life.  He's only a year older and we've always taken care of each other, had the same friends, and played music together.  Both of my brothers and their ladies sound like they're doing really well and are adjusting to life out west.  I really hope I can visit soon.  Hannah's 30th birthday is in October and I'd love to celebrate with them but not sure we'll make it out by then.  Sigh.  remember, you are always welcome to donate to the fly-us-to-LA fund.

Jack was very excited to see Aunt Hannah too.

Saturday:

STEP AWAY FROM THE GOLD SHORTS.  

Hey, I know.

Lunch with mom & Hannah.

Dustbowl Arts Market with my boys.

Jack went to play at my mom's.

Dinner at Blu with Husband.

A drink at the Library with Husband and J. Rider.

A drink at La Luna with Husband, J. Rider, Ty, and Ashley.

I met some new friends. 

Go Me!

Sunday:

We all sleep in!

Mama and I saw The Help.

It was good.

We had dinner with my father-in-law.

I did a little recording for no reason whatsoever.

Lovely weekend.  Can't wait for next weekend. 

♥  jp

no. really. kick me out.

Jack and I went to see Grams this morning.

Jack and I went to lunch at Iguana with our beloved Hannah.

While waiting for our table, Jack yelled "KICK ME OUT!" over and over and over.

Jack threw beans and rice everywhere, proudly and with enthusiasm.

Jack kicked the table and shoved it into Hannah- over and over and over.

Jack yelled at a guy sitting near us, telling him that he was going to pinch him.

Jack told Hannah the guy behind us was going to pay for lunch.

Jack threw a tantrum and I recorded it on video and played it back for him.

He did not appreciate it.

Finally got out of the restaurant.  (everyone probably cheered.)

Jack found the one spot of mud on the ground and dug his fingers into it.

I picked him up and he spit on me.

Buckled him in his seat and he fell asleep in 5 minutes.

It's really hard sometimes but could be harder.

Oh.  There we go.

My favorite shirt, already covered in spit and queso, just tore.

There's good news too though.

BFF Dave called and we're going to have a drink this evening.

HURRAY!

You will be happy to know-  I think the gross water thing works.  I've been drinking it for 4 days now and I seem to be much less puffy.  Or maybe this is all in my mind.  No idea.  I'm a girl.  I'm delusional. 

Jack is very serious about driving the grocery cart truck around homeland.  Man, that thing is kind of embarrassing to push around but it makes my chicken happy so onward we push!  I think we're way past embarrassing at this point in parenthood anyway.  

Beep! Beep!  Have a nice weekend.
♥ jp

there's a baby in there.

Ok, let's lighten the mood around here.  Taylor, my beautiful sister-in-law, is pregnant with her second child.  I CAN'T WAIT for this baby to get here.  They moved to Shreveport a while ago and are just moving back this week.  moving when you're pregnant totally sucks as i remember.  Last weekend I took some maternity photos of Taylor.  I think they turned out beautiful.  Especially considering we were in 100 something degree Oklahoma heat for 45 minutes.  I was sweating and covered in dirt like a little boy.  She was glowing, not sweating, and gorgeous.  

Jack is going to be so happy when he fully understands they are moving back for good.  He's going to be such a good big brother someday-  he looks out for his cousin, Peyton, and it's so rewarding to see the good character he already shows at 2.5 years old.  in case you're one of the only people my mom didn't tell-  i'll have you know, i have won more than one citizenship award in my day.

*no, these weren't taken with my phone.  Nikon D300.

Change of subject.  Funny thing just happened-  Husband's iphone just fell into a big pile of ranch dressing he had on his plate.  True Okies eat ranch on everything.  

Alright.  Jack is sleeping (on our bed) and I'm into my second glass of pinot grigio.  This means back porch time starts now.

♥  jp

blue dark.

Jack is having an afternoon snooze and I told myself I would do my workout now but instead I'm on my MacBook Air, watching old episodes of Kourtney and Khloe Take Miami and eating a graham cracker.  Oh, and also enjoying a ice cold glass of detox water drink stuff- I've been downing it all week.  60 ounces of water with 2 tablespoons of sugar-free cranberry juice, 1 tablespoon of lemon juice and a bag of dandelion root tea.  It tastes like lemon water with an after taste of shit.  Who in the hell drinks dandelion root tea?  Those who wish to promote healthy liver function or those (like me) who wish to banish excess water weight.  Jillian Michaels seems to think if you drink it for 7 days, you'll lose 5ish pounds of water weight.  We'll see.  Jillian is evil and very well could be playing a trick on me.  

I used to cook almost every evening but this summer it's just been too hot.  I make things with cheese, flour, heavy cream, pasta, hearty soups, cornbread, curry, and more cheese.  Too hot to eat these things.  Last night I made tortellini with and basil artichoke garlic sauce for the boys.  I had a lovely kale salad with lemon.  This week I also made broccoli with toasted pine nuts and lemon, roasted garlic and olive oil, sauteed spinach, carmelized baby carrots, garlic bread, and chicken.  Now we know that Jack LOVES broccoli.  It's funny the things that make me happy these days.  

I need a night.  Like at the Mont or something.  Margaritas, swirls, club specials, wine.  I don't suggest all in one night, i'm sure i've done it before though.  I need to wear something cute, take my hair out of this ponytail and meet up with friends or a friend.  Husband would be invited but someone's got to watch the baby.  This pretend night would not involve any talk about boy/girl drama, what you do at work that nobody cares about, no baby talk, and no bullshit in general.  Topics to consider: music, fashion, funny internet things, Ryan Gosling's body, and making fun of people.  I need to be around fun and funny people.  I used to get all my fun from my BFF, Dave, but he's married and a stay at home daddy now so he's very, very busy.  although he does text me something hilarious at least once a day or every other day.  OR.  I need people to play music with.  Just hanging out, playing some jams on the back porch.  I used to have friends to do that with but they've decided that I'm not cool anymore or something.  

This blog has turned into a desperate cry for friends or something sad.  It has, hasn't it?  I have friends, I just never see anyone.  Everyone is busy.  Everyone lives far away.  I can't go out without a babysitter.  And my friends apparently think i'm the most awkward person on the face of the planet.  Maybe I'm not that awkward, maybe I don't know how to have a conversation that is solely about you, your job, your life, your problems and how I can help you fix them.  I'm that friend, the one who takes care of everyone but the one nobody invites out to do the fun stuff.  The one that friends only call when they're driving in their car because they have absolutely nothing else to do.  Feeling sorry for yourself seems to be the only reasonable thing to do when you're drinking this detox water stuff.  

And to be fair, I've been missing my brothers, Hannah, and my dad a lot lately so maybe that's the source of my loneliness.  Or, you know, maybe not.  maybe it's you, not me.

Don't worry, I'm not sad and depressed or anything, it's more like I'm Patrick Swayze in Ghost.  Jack is Whoopi Goldberg because he's the only person who knows i'm here.  That would make my friends Demi Moore.  Only 2 of my friends read this stuff, one of which is living in Mexico and the other one-  I see her often and she's fabulous.  She just babysat Jack the other night.  Eternally grateful.

Time to wake the chicken.  Have a nice Thursday and think of me while you're sipping your drinks in good company.  Be nice to your friends.  Brush your teeth before you go to bed.  Don't try this detox drink until I'm done-  there's no sense in both of us suffering until we know if it works.  Now that's a true friend.  Now, excuse me, I have to pee for the 10,000th time today.  Water, green tea, detox water, water, green tea, detox water, repeat.

♥  jp
 ps-  this is how i make myself laugh most days.  ----> whenparentstext.com

monday busy monday.

Just some pictures from the weekend.  Today is catch up day.  Laundry, cleaning, baby wrangling, and grocery shopping.  I've been wearing an excessive amount of ridiculous shorts lately.  Just bought a pair of BCBG leather shorts-  originally $200 but I found them on sale!  Also found an amazing yellow jacket also $200 but on super sale.  Success.

Thursday night, Husband and I went on a little date in OKC.  We ate Big Truck Tacos-  the tacos with fried avocados are insane- and then stopped by Cocktails on the Skyline at the art museum.  Friday I played a show at the Opolis in Norman.  Lots of people were out and it was a fun time.  Saturday was my niece's 2nd birthday party-  the kids had fun and wore themselves out.  After, I did a maternity photoshoot for my sister in law.  Sunday, Husband and I went to see One Day and it was depressing.  It was a good movie, a little slow but charming until the end when it depressed the hell out of me.  Quit it, movie.

gold shorts.

more gold shorts.

Jack likes to paint.


Hey!  So, have a good week.  There's a cool show at the Opolis tonight-  maybe I'll see you there.
♥ jp

classically trained.

So now my mom thinks I only drink coconut water and that I never eat anything.  I recieved a concerned phone call.  Trust me, Mom, I eat.  I just ate a bunch of pretzels.  And before that, I had some animal crackers.  And before that, I had a couple bites of Jack's grilled cheese.  And before that, I had cereal.  This afternoon I made macaroni and cheese for dinner-  it's ready to go in the oven.  Real mac'n'cheese with cheddar, mozzerella, gouda, cream, milk, flour, butter, and salt.  I plan on making fried okra, green beans, and biscuits in a little bit.  And chicken for the boys.  I ate pizza last night.  And popcorn, of course.  I don't feel dieter's guilt when I eat something f'n delicious.  I thought we already went over this?  I eat very healthy-  lots of fresh veggies and fruit, yogurt, green tea, water, and wine.  Lots of spinach and arugula with tomatoes, craisins, and olive oil lately.  So there.  I'm not starving myself nor do I look like I'm starving myself.  Silly.

This kid isn't starving either.  He's got a lunchable stuffed in his mouth in this photo.  He's been extra sweet this week, our special mommy/baby week together.  We've played a lot of guitar and are learning piano together.  I don't think we're actually learning anything yet but we like to pretend.  Don't judge us, we're lazy sometimes.

I look so mean in this picture!  I'm so tough!  Not really.  It's habit.  I have this really annoying birth defect known as dimples and it makes me look like a little girl.  I don't mind it so much now but I used to be really self conscious about it when I was younger.  You will never see me sing (i sound like a 6 year old) and smile at the same time.  Little girl overload.  

Took Jack to visit my Grams.  He ate most of her Hershey's Kisses and showed her how to color in his coloring book.  He was very serious about it.  Jack walks around like he owns that nursing home.

Just found out I'm getting a massage tomorrow afternoon.  I can't wait!!!!!!!!  TAM never stops making you sore.  Last night I made myself a dirty vodka martini to deal with the pain in my ass, shoulders, and ribs.  And then I On Demanded The Notebook for $1.  I say On Demanded is a verb so don't look at me like that.  Laugh all you want but you know it's a good movie.  

I'm going to read the new Elle Decor mag now.  I lead a very exciting life.  If you want to bring a bottle of wine over to my house, I won't complain.

♥  jp

parties every night.

He said he was driving like Daddy and then answered his pretend phone while honking the horn.  He was a little tired to be in a restaurant so I brought him out to the truck to pretend drive.  Today we played, we watched a movie, we had dinner, we shared a little bit of cheesecake, and we played with trucks.  It's been a nice Sunday but I wish Husband were here to hang out with us.  He's umpiring a game but should be back soon.  

Before the weekend started, I did my own nails.  This is the sort of thing that happens when I get bored.  I liked it!  They were pretty much ruined after my show on Friday night but it was super easy to do so I'll be doing some experimenting. 

Remember the gold shorts?  They finally made an appearance this weekend.  I was going to wear them to the show but decided to wear a dress instead. 

I went Forever 21 (forever 30?) shopping and couldn't decide if I liked this top or not so I didn't get it.  Still undecided so that probably means I made the right decision.  (Until fall rolls around and I remember that I didn't buy this and need it.)

I definitely didn't buy this electric yellow cheetah print tank top.  I thought-  if I were Jack, would I be embarrassed of my mom?  Yes.  Probably.  So I put it back.  The sacrifices we make...

I was on a hunt in my closet to find something to wear to my show when I found this dress.  I bought it at Lucca months ago to wear to some sort of event but never wore it.  How did I forget about this fantastic dress?  No, you can't wear a bra with it and yes, it shows a little side boob.  So what.

What a great turn out we had!  We played some new songs too.  It just feels so good to play.  We're going to be featured in another magazine-  not sure when but you'll hear about it on here at some point.  We're getting new merch, our album will finally be on itunes, and we'll be playing out of state a lot more this fall.  Lots to look forward to.

Ryan Lawson took this photo of us. 

The birthday party we hosted turned out great.  Mostly people I didn't know but everyone was super nice and respectful of our home.  We didn't have much to clean up at the end of the night.  The food was a big hit and the margarita machine was pretty cool.  I mostly drank cups and cups of water all weekend long so I may open that bottle of champagne that was left here.  *Kelli, I'll get you back, girl!  Mama needs a little Sunday drink to go with new episodes of Keeping Up with the Kardashians and Entourage.  Did you know that I eat a little popcorn every single night?  Champagne is a nice little treat to add to my treat.  *popcorn is not TAM approved but she'll have to deal with it!

Oh yeah, I ended up wearing the gold shorts, a t-shirt and black velvet heels to the party.  Because you care so much about what I wear in my own house and stuff.  I mean, you know...

Husband has liked falling asleep outside lately.  This was after everyone left the party.  It took me a while to wake him.  One time I left him out there because I could not, for the life of me, get him to come to bed!  Pretty funny.  

Jack doesn't have school all week so we'll be playing all day, every day!  I'm sure I'll have a ton of cute photos of him to post soon.  Have a lovely week.

♥ jp

my ass. it hurts.

Hey guys.  So, I'm not working out today but here's what I've been doing all week.  It's fun, you should try it.  If you don't have the money to buy metamorphosis or you just want to see if you even like TAM, search for Tracy Anderson on youtube and tons of little workouts pop up.  I do these webisodes (in addition to 30 mins of dance cardio) when I want to change up my workout.  These aren't very hard but they are a  good, quick little workout for you.  Your ass will hurt so bad right after, you'll have trouble walking to the kitchen to eat cookies.  Well, that's what happened to me.

Tracy's Arms Webisode

 

Tracy's Abs Webisode

Gosh, I sure am sick of veggie protein soup everyday.  Over it!  I've been drinking lots of green tea, Zico coconut water, Zico CHOCOLATE coconut water, and raspberry melon G2 gatorade.  Chocolate coconut water is surprisingly delicious.  Man, I want a big ass Diet Coke though.

Tracy's Butt and Thighs Webisode

Have fun!
♥ jp

it's raining and pouring.

The sky is dark and the trees are actually swaying!  Loving the sound of thunder and rain.  Jack is about to fall asleep on the couch watching Toy Story 3.  I need to get through my TAM workout soon or I'll think about skipping it and I can't skip it.  I've got a busy weekend ahead of me.  Tonight is OJ!G rehearsal in OKC.  Tomorrow I'm leaving early to get a shot to help with anemia then my sister and I are going to lunch and getting pedicures.  Husband and I will head up to OKC a little early to load up equipment and hang out with the band.  Show Friday night.  Saturday, we'll be getting ready for the birthday party all day.  Making food and decorating.  Recovery on Sunday.  It may not sound like a lot to you but I've had a problem with anemia lately and it's making me exhausted.  Like, hard for me to function kind of tired.  Can't even pick Jack up tired.

Speaking of birthdays, I like to make my own cards to give to people.  I usually draw crappy looking birds on my cards but last time I went with a crappy looking unicorn.  I mean seriously-  HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HERE'S A UNICORN!  What's better than that?  I'm a child.

Have a lovely, rainy day, Oklahomans.  

♥  jp

You know, i changed my mind.  i'm skipping TAM today.  i feel pretty tired.  i need some iron kids bread or something.

more than fame & gold.

Who wants to ride pone pones with me?  Do you know how to row?  I don't but I saw a groupon for a rowing class and it looks fun.  Would you like to do some dance cardio with me?  Some ballet stuff?  Um.  Can you sew?  i love to sew and i don't know anyone else who owns a sewing machine or knows how to use one.  Would you like to go to lunch?  Shopping?  I know.  Let's go to happy hour.  well, ok.  i can't go to happy hour because i have a little boy.   We can plan a formal Christmas party!  Or something.  The dollar theater + wine is always a winner.  Or we can play guitar.  Do you know how to play the piano?  I think I could learn pretty fast and I have a really cool piano so can you teach me?  I want to get out and do something fun.  Are you free this evening?  Or tonight?  

Ok.  I don't hoard used bottles like a crazy lady but I sometimes use them as pretty little vessels for fresh flowers.  Husband likes to drink Jarritos and they'll be perfect for festive flowers for the birthday party we're throwing my homegirl, Kelli.  There will be fajitas, rice, beans, chips, dips, pinatas, margaritas, lights, actions, and cameras.  I'm pumped. 

Our show this weekend was SO MUCH FUN!  Sandy and Brooke got their fbombing groove back and it puts me in such a good mood.  Rehearsal tomorrow, show friday at The Blue Note in OKC.  

Completely obsessed with a few things lately.  

1.  Banana Republic's Mad Men collection.  I would like one of everything, please.

2.  I would like one of everything for Husband as well.  Do you know how hot he would look in either of these looks?  Swoon & sigh.

3.  Accessories.  Always a big fan of the skinny tie with a tie bar.  I gave Husband a really cool half inch tie bar last christmas.  I got it at The Tie Bar.  I love pearls, of course.  I actually have a bag that looks like this leopard print one except mine isn't from BR, I found it at Forever 21 months ago!  Score.  It was only around $25.  I have some really lovely bags but I hate to carry a super nice one if I know I'm going to be in a smokey bar all night so I have cool, inexpensive bags I buy specifically to take out in that situation.  Because I'm smart. 

4.  Completely in love with Lana Del Rey's hair.  It's 60's-ish dreamy angel hair.  I actually wear my hair in a similar style all the time but now that I'm obsessed with her, I make it a point to tease and spray everyday.

5.  I'm almost done with this post, I promise.  The video isn't that cool or anything but I love this song and it's been on repeat for a very long time.  Penny and the Quarters-  You and Me.  Buy it 4 real.

Ok DONE!  Have a lovely week.  I'm waiting on your calls, texts, messages, emails, tweets, messages in bottles, and carrier pigeons.  

♥  jp